A Closed Heart

Emotions
Pain

Ill health
Pain can be so intense that it can make you physically ill. Any existing medical condition could worsen and you need to take extra care of yourself. Keep in regular touch with your G.P. When your body is trying to deal with the emotional turmoil, there is little energy left to fight off any illness. Try to consider this particularly if you are instigating the proceedings.

Pain is inevitable
Continuing to suffer is only an option. Although it may be difficult to perceive at this stage, your goal is to let go of this terrible pain. How can this be done? By 'forgiving' your spouse. You do not have to do this personally; you are allowing yourself to 'forgive' in order to say goodbye with love. 'Forgive' yourself too for any part in this. It may be too early on your journey to contemplate this but try to revisit this section later. Keep this as a future goal no matter how ridiculous it may seem to you now.

A closed heart
Try not to leave with a closed heart as you will need an open heart to appreciate your new life and its new possibilities. When love is present, life works. Try to remember the love that existed once. You were once loved, called beloved. Remember how it felt. Plan to feel like this again. You once lived in this state of love but now your pain is causing you to withdraw. This hurt is making you closed to the possibility of love and happiness. Attempt to look for something positive each day. Gratitude is so valuable.

Looking back without pain
There will be a time when you remember the love that existed without feeling this pain. You must not close off this former life; it is part of who you are. Your memories may be painful now but after time, they will be just happy memories again. Do not destroy your photos and mementos. You may want to see them when you are not hurting so much. If you have children, they will want to see them too as this is part of them. They do not belong to you alone; they are part of both of you and hurt when the other parent is criticised.

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posted by Robert Heard at 9:26 AM