Sexual assault; a nightmare

I was raped. I guess I just needed to admit that. I know it was not my fault but I have trouble dealing with it that way. I hate this feeling. It is terrible.
by Shawnie on 30 Mar 2006

My .story will seem small in comparison but between the ages 8 and 12 I was sexually assaulted by my cousin Jordan. I am now 13. The worst part was that when it wasn't happening I almost wished that it was. I felt used, unloved and alone. I know there are other people like me but I wish I were all alone, then no one would have to feel the pain that I have felt and feel. The first person I confided in was my best friend, Kelsey. She was supportive but didn't really think to much about it. Then I told my friends Corrine and Erin, they both told me that I had to tell one of my school counselors. I wasn't to sure but I decided that as long as my two shining stars were with me, I'd be alright. There was a draw back though. The day I was to talk to my school counselor, Mrs.Hubbard, I accidentally broke my friend Corrines' thumb. So Erin came with me. Mrs. Hubbard was really supportive, but she had to tell my school principal. She didn't say any names though. She told me that I had to tell my parents, and this is where things got tough. I told my parents the day before valentines day. They said I didn't have to speak or be alone with him ever again. Then they said he probably didn't know what he was doing but the thing is he did, they most likely will never be able to accept that..

Jordan ruined my life, but I'm pretty sure I can't let it go. I will never forgive him . At least not yet I'm not ready yet. I haven't got into the dating scene yet but I currently like a really nice guy named Tal.

This part of my life is over and done, I just hope that no one will ever have to experience what I went through ever again. But the world isn't perfect and remember no matter how many bad people there may seem to be ion this planet, there are always more good ones.
by Bonnie on 29 Mar 2006

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