I was 17 years old

I was 17 years old and it was three weeks before I would be heading off to college. I was working late at the restaurant that night and my coworkers invited me to a party. The first thing I asked was if there was going to be alcohol there?? I had never drank a day in my life, but figured everyone at college does it why shouldn't I. Of course they said yes and I was hesitant to go, but my coworker named Richard whom I considered a friend said he would watch out for me. A little after midnight I rode with Richard to the party. There was a lot of people and alcohol there than I could have ever imagined. Everyone kept telling me your going off to school where everyone drinks why not start now. So I drank and drank. Richard kept bringing me more beer. After about 5 or 6 beers I started to feel real dizzy and lightheaded. I just wanted to lay down. I asked Richard to drive me home. It was near 2 am. The last thing I remember is getting into his car...When I came too Richard was on top of me and was raping me in the backseat of his car. I screamed for him to stop and tried to get him off, but I was too weak and quickly fell unconcsious. The next thing I remember was being half dragged into my house and into my bedroom. There was no one else home because the rest of my family was in Florida. I believe that Richard raped me again at this time, but my memory is still fuzzy. When I awoke in the morning I felt really hungover and sick to my stomach. It wasn't until I got into the shower than did everything that had happened came full force into my mind. I just fell apart and started bawling. I felt so ashamed and so dirty. Richard had betrayed my trust in the most humilating way possible. I never returned to work at that resturant and I didn't tell anyone until the nightmares got to be so bad that I was never sleeping. A counselor was the first person to hear my story. Its been a little over a year since this happend and I am a far cry from where I was a year ago. My healing contiunes but I will survive.
by Rachelon 18 Dec 2003

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