I can't believe this has happened (and is happening) to so many people

I can't believe this has happened (and is happening) to so many people. I feel for all of you out there who've been raped or abused, I've been through it once too.
My mum was in England with my grandpa at the time and my brother, sister and I were left with my dad for around 10 days. On one of those days as I was walking past my dad's room to go to my own, right after having a shower, my dad called me into his room. I told him to wait a second because I had to get dressed but he insisted that I just go to him. (I was only around 6 years old at the time and I didn't know anything about sex). I went into the room and saw him lying on his bed naked and he asked me to lie down next to him.. again I insisted I go get dressed first but he told me to shut-up and obey so I did. He made me do things to him and after a while he let me go and that was it. I was confused and didn't know what had just happened and I guess I forgot about it then. A while later I got a flashback of what happened and I told my sister about it. Apparently she had seen me go in his room that day and 'knew' what was going to happen but was too young and helpless to do anything about it. She also told me that he was doing the same to her, the difference being that with me it was just once but the bastard did it to her for practically her whole childhood. I hate my dad with a passion but me and my sister have to act as though nothing ever happened and live as normally as we can (which we do). We talk about it occasionally but it hurts too much. We decided never to tell our mum because we don't want her going through such pain. My sister is now 18 and I'm almost 17. She is the person I look up to the most in this world and I love her to death. I have recently told my boyfriend about this and he's been so great and I love him with all my heart.
by T.H. on 23 Oct 2005

Labels: I can't believe this has happened (and is happening) to so many people

posted by Robert Heard at 8:02 AM