I was raped when I was 18

I was raped when I was 18, 3 years ago. My best friend and I had gone to a party. There were some guys there that we knew for a long time. Still to this day, I’m confused at what really happened and why? I remember getting sick, puking in the bathroom. I was not the person with a great tolerance for alcohol. But, I do know that it happened way too fast like I was drugged. I had blacked out in the bathroom hugging the toilet. And when I awoke, I was lying down on a bed and he was taking off my shoes and pants. I had passed out again, and I didn’t wake up till the next morning when I found myself naked in the bed and him the same way. I was confused, I had asked my friend the next day what had happened. She told me that he had carried me from the bathroom and into the bedroom. She even admitted that she went to check on me and saw that he was taking advantage of me and she didn’t do anything about it. We are no longer friends because of it. I was a virgin at the time and this guy I had known for 7 years did this to me. It took me 8 days to tell anyone because I was in shock. I took him to court as my friend being the witness. Because I didn’t even know what had happened after the first hour I was at the party, he was convicted and got put in jail. That was a big healing process for me. But still this day I have issues, a lack of trust. I can’t personally get close to any of my friends, because of the betrayal I encountered from my friend at the time. I fear any sexual intimacy from any guy. I still have my up and down days and I’m still healing. It takes time.
by kelcieon 1 Jun 2005

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